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♥ 5:12 PM

hellos.
really happy when i received a sms from peishan saying that she not angry with me le.
but she's still angry with sixuan.
now?
i think she's angry with me again
cos i asked her to forgive and forget and told her that sixuan nv act emo. LOL.
no choice but i have to state it clear.
if not this misunderstanding will go on and on...

i wanted to write about wad had REALLY happened and how i felt that monday.
which actually in peishan's post,
she missed out part of the story and she said sixuan act emo.
i think she may had told her story to some people already.
they may had already believed her and is standing on her side, wadever.
i can't take it anymore. i HAVE to write this.

that monday;;
we were actually at verna's house at first
when sixuan called saying that we can go her house.
we reached her house and practised singing.
sixuan can't possibly learn finish the song's piano piece by thursday,
so she say she is giving up on practising the piano piece,
she would wan to sing instead.
she asked many times to peishan whether she can sing or not but peishan kept silent.
then, me and chinbee say can let sixuan try.
(she may go out of tune in some parts
but she can realli sing well in some other parts. )
but then peishan kept silent again.
then sixuan got abit frustrated and so she went to her room.
(this is where peishan is saying that sixuan act emo in her post.)
i went to comfort sixuan 1st.
then chinbee and verna.
and she cried.
she said that she wanted to sing but peishan dun let her.
SHE CRIED.
i've never seen her cry before in my whole life because she was hurt by a person.
i onli see her cry before in church(quite a few times bahh..)
and when we watch '10 promises to my dog'. (so far i remember..)
we comforted her as best as we could.
and me and chinbee tried to solve the problem.
we discussed and finally came out of an idea.
me, chinbee and peishan in one grp and me, chinbee and sixuan in a separate grp.
we came out from the room and told peishan about it.
and she actually said, "nevermind, i dun nid you" (this is the part she missed out in her post.)
you see,
we practised singing HARD together
and we are now trying to satisfy her by having separate grps,
which is quite tiring for me or maybe chinbee.
and she said, "nevermind, i dun nid you."
this sentence gave me a feeling that she doesn't nid us, she can just go solo.
she dun have us oso can thru the auditions(which might be true).
is like, we are just substitutes to her.
and she is oso the originator of this grp.
she brought us together and said this hurtful sentence in the end.
i walked away and TEARED.
as in my eyes got tears.
sixuan and verna then asked me dun cry and so i did not realli cry,
just tears in my eyes.
this sentence is soo hurtful.
then, she angry liiaos.
she automatically opened the door and went out of the house.
AND
it's sixuan's house.
and she went off without telling sixuan.
and sixuan got angry too.
because peishan shows no respect to her.

okayys,
let me analyse.
actually, if she said okay with the arrangement
when we told her about the splitting of grps,
everything would be fine.
till now i still dun understand she angry for wad.
even say we pangseh her in her post
when she actually said that hurtful sentence to us first and went off rather rudely.
she was actually given a choice: go solo or continue grouping with me and chinbee without sixuan.
then we would have another grp with sixuan without peishan.
which i thought this idea of having 2 grps would be okayy(satisfying to her and sixuan).
but she chose to say that sentence which means she dun wan to grp with us anymore.

so when i saw her post,
at first,
i was realli angry
because she say sixuan act emo
when she never go in the room and hear what sixuan say and see that sixuan DID cry.
(sixuan's isn't a person who would just cry suddenly with no reason.
she would cry when she feel hurt and she could not tolerate anymore.)
and oso say that we pangseh her when she chose not to group with us anymore in the first place.
i realli dun understand.

anyway.
this is not a post to offend anyone.
i just wan to speak my stand.
and write wad i think and just write the whole real story.
i dun noe if peishan would be more angry or not after reading this post,
or hear from other ppl
i hope she won't cos she shouldn't be angry at all.
whatsmore, this thing already happened for so long already.
i think she should just forgive and forget.
isn't being angry at someone for a long time, tiring?
i am trying to forget about this thing
(i'm not angry anymore already, trying to stop thinking about this thing now.)
and continue to be frens with her.
but she still angry with me or rather, us.
i really dun noe wad i should do.

wad a ultra-long post. LOL.
byebye~`

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